gM's 天地

对我而言，感情是要珍惜和爱护的，不是来玩弄的。你这样做会让我讨厌你。无情本来就不应该有感情。猫它自私和自我。不过它心地善良. I dun need you to do anything for me. I just need you to trust me. I wanna do this to make every1 happy. I Hope u will understand 1 day.

erm. today is my last day in work. started off with a very good mood to work. After tat received some msgs so i went online to find jokes. muz cheer tat person up.But cannot find leh. how how ? Erm.. Will i miss my workplace when i leave ? No ! i wont. this is juz me. I wont miss the place, i wont miss the pple. THis is all part n parcel of life, we meet, we part. Nothing to be sad.. No 1 treat me lunch but its alright. got pple treat me chocs and ice cream. haha. grateful to u all.
Last 3 hours still find work for me to do. nvm, i endure u all abit more. Sry, i dun like, i will show, i will say, i will not pretend to like you. pple like you in this world is a pest to the society. Hope 1 day u can find out tat urself. Later gg gym den go tian hui qz. Erm.. after today think i will tk a break from blogging. cos my house the com got problem and no internet. next month den i sign up for internet. Erm.. last 1 hour for me.. no past tense , no future tense for me, only present tense. recalled some past affairs, making me emo. i know i will get over it wan.

想回到过去,试着让故事继续,至少不再让你离我而去.iI am tired. If this story have to end den end it. Its all fate. if i am not ur whoever den so be it, it does not matter to me too cos u dun have the position in my heart also.I builded a wall in my heart and i throwed away the key to the door to my heart. So tat i will nv feel anything again, this time i promise. I wont hold back. I chose truth over happiness, and i wont regret it.

I am tired, very very tired. I can play mind games with you if you wan. And i am sure i wont lose wan. Not becos i ego, but this has always been a fact. We are not reading dan brown book, deception point. If we are so untrue to each other, whats the point ？ Pple say time will heal all wounds but i dun believe. Ever heard of a story in ft ? deres a father and a kid, the kid always like to throw his temper so the father told him, whenever u throw a temper, u nail a nail to a wood. after years and years, this kid finally grew up and the wood is full of nails. He decided to change, so the father tells him, everytime u can control ur temper u take out a nail. After years all the nails has been taken out, and the kid now a man proudly shows his dad. And his dad says, even though all the nails has been taken out, but the wounds will always be dere. Each and every time u hurt ur parents and friends the wound will always be dere fovever. I guess this is a simple story. If i know u are lying, y wont i expose you ? becos deres no pt in doing so. Am i heartless or am i emotional ?

人总是有两面，真实的一面，和虚伪的一面。I am very tired of all these. Juz wanna find a place where i can be alone. 我的心是个落叶的季节。When school reopens, i am gonna bury myself inside all the textbooks.

haha. was looking at the past photos. i realised tat i was very skinny sia. really. now my face abit round liao. i am starting to think is this change due to the cultivation of dao or i eat alot more ? haha.People always lidat wan. when u are skinny, u wan to be fatter, when u are fatter , u want to be skinny. The grass is always greener on the other side. But we need to be contented seriously, be grateful for what heaven has gave us. but i need to exercise more la. haha. to get rid of my belly fats. next next week when my work ends i can swim everyday. haha. cool right ?

phyiscally may change but did i change internally ? i guess pple cant tell, only me myself knows the answer best.

i cant wait to end work. its so boring. And the women in my office is all crazy wan.
hmmm. I am at most a charcoal, at my maximum capabilities, i am only a top graded charcoal. Cannot even go to the exhibition hall. This is sad, but no choice. Life still goes on. I dunoo whether i will change in the future anot but at least i know right now at this moment i wanna cherish the things and pple tat are important to me. =)